Yeah...

I should have taken today off. Here are the things that are running through my mind right now:

• I've got the ultrasound today. Yes, I'm freaking out just a bit even though I'll probably be fine. Also, I wasn't allowed to put on perfume, lotion, or deodorant today so I'm worried that I'm stinky. No hugs today.
• I'm freakin' starving but I didn't bring lunch because I overslept BIG TIME. (I blame it on this amazing dream I was having. Mmmmm...)
• I'm worried that I have some intolerant friends. They are INSISTING that a mosque not be built near the WTC site. I don't see the problem. They are saying that because the people who destroyed the towers are Muslims, Muslims shouldn't be allowed to build anything there. (I had this same discussion with Eggo's brother.) That is the stupidest thing I've ever heard but I was willing to hear them out. They didn't say anything that changed my mind. And the worst part? One of these people is my best friend, Sinner. I can't believe that she's like that. It sickens me a bit. I mean, I still love her but I'm completely blown away by her ridiculous intolerant stance.
• I'm worried about Eggo. He's coming up on a few difficult decisions that he has to make on his own. I REALLY want to help but he needs to sink or swim. Plus, he's really resenting his family for trying to run his life, so I'm trying (TRYING) not to do that.
• I feel like I losing my grip on things. Times, dates, and other daily fixtures in my life are just flying by without my recognition of them. Maybe it's because I have so much to get done now or that being an adult is more difficult than I ever anticipated. I don't know.
• I'll be 30 in a month. This milestone doesn't scare me but I am a little anxious about the upcoming changes I KNOW I'll have to adjust to. What will be different? Will I lose all sense of who I was and the things I fought for in my 20s? What the hell DID I fight for? Do I now have to become a normal functioning adult? I DEFINITELY don't think I want to do that.
• Money. I'm slowly going broke. There are many reasons why but the fact remains that I'm about to be in very dire straits. One serious illness or emergency could completely bankrupt me. I'm balancing on a very thin wire even now. Not exactly how I saw my 30s beginning.

All of this and much more is buzzing around in my head. I may possibly be going insane but hopefully it's just another phase and I'll be out of it soon.

Blathering over...